20 Years Ago Today The Western World and All of The British Empire Stood Still!

20 Years ago today, the western world and all of the british empire stood still! 

It is hard to imagine that 20 years ago, My mother ran out of her bedroom into the living room where my grandparents and I were talking. They were visiting for far off. She said, “Did you hear that princess Diana die?” My grandma says, “Umm…no.”  Mom says, “Oh, it isn’t on the channel you’re watching. It is on vh1.” She grabs the remote and says, “Here change the channel right fast. I bet it is on almost every single one.” She flips though about a dozen or so channels and says, “See it is on almost all of them.” My grandma just lets out an slightly annoyed, “Okay… Well, lets watch it!” The news reporters are speaking about the car crash and the details and how the queen and prince Charles had been informed of the news. It was  unclear of Prince William and Harry have been woken up or told yet but, they just let them sleep and tell them in the morning. etc. 

This was just a couple of day before I was to start high school. I was 13. I have studied her life and history and read a few books about her over the years. What strikes me now, is that she was only 3 years older at her death than I am today. Also, how ordinary she seemed.

She took the untouchable royal family. She made them touchable though her and her sons. She had brought them up to be humble. She was opened and human. She showed emotion. She was real. It was as if she was just like many of us. 

She had struggled with depression, isolution and loneliness. Yet, she continued to do the best she could with what she had. How many us go though the same struggles? Yes, she had money, fame and luxury. She had two handsome boys to look after. Some people thought that she had it all. Why did she seem so sad?
She had married too young. She probably thought at first that it was like she was living a dream that many young women would give an arm and a leg for. Prince Charles knew he had to marry someone his mother would approve off. He was already 32 and the pressure was increasing for him to marry. With such pressure on him, he decided that Diana. One of the women that the, “Playboy” had a short romance with was his best option to marry. He had not married for love but rather out of duty. 

Diana was very young and still very native. In an interview right after their engagement, the reporter asked them if they loved each other and after she answered, “Yes.” Prince Charles said smuggly, “Whatever love is.” The camera seems to zone in on Diana. She instantly becomes visibly upset. Yet, this has happened to many of us all over the world. Young Women and also some men get forced, or in this case, tricked into a marriage of convience. Often, by the time the tricked realize that they have in been tricked, they are overly invested in the marriage, taking care of their children and in some cases, step-children.

In 1994, after her divorce…many people asked themselves why would anyone want to divorce from Prince Charles? In her 1995 interview with Martin Bashir, She reveals truths that many people never saw coming. His affair with Camilla, her struggle with  bulimia…etc. Her life and her story. She had become a single mother trying to cope with her new life without much support from the people she loved. She seems to have pittied herself alittle….but how many of us do when we feel burntout and overwhelmed with our life and our disappoined in the way things have turned out to be or where we are. 

No matter how rich or poor we are. No matter how famous we are or how forgotten we have become. We all have our own struggles. We are all relatable. Usually, all it takes to see that is pill away alittle at the surface. Things are not always what they appear to be on the outside.



Have you ever realized how much better learning can be when you are motivated and interested? 

Why is that?

Humans are natural learner.

However, We all learn differently.

The brain is hardwired for learning.

No one is immune.

It is the individual learning differences that are rarely taught in school. 

My Person

My person.

As I share myself to you

What will you do?

As I learn to trust you

What will you do?

As I open my fragile heart to you

What will you do?

My person.

Will you share with me?

And together we will be.

Will you trust me?

And your secrets I will keep.

Will you open your heart up to me?

And I will mend it with mine.

My person.

What happens on the bad days?

Will you run away?

Will you be by my side to walk through them with me?

What happens on the good days?

Will you be happy with me?

Will we be joined together in our enjoyment on each other?

My person.

I will be beside you in your heart at all times.

I won’t go anyway.

I will be on your side though everything.

The good times are all yours.

I will be happy with you as your happiness is also mine.

My pleasure is best enjoyed with joined with yours.

My person.

You can have it all.

People weren’t built to be all alone.

So, take my body, my heart, my love, my everything as though it was your own. 

And I will do the same for you if you let me. 

It is Nearly All About How You Look at Things.

I have been watching a 30 sec video on facebook over and over again since yesturday. Although, I can’t share it here. I can give you some context as to why it has caught my attention. A young woman is looking and scrolling on her phone. It doesn’t show want she is looking at but her reaction is hysterically positive. It may be a redoing of something or is staged. However, it seems incredibly real as if it did indeed really happen in real time. What is she reacting too so strongly and laughing at is a photo of her significant other with another woman. He seems to give the impression of this being a new significant other in his life effectively replacing her. She views this as extremely funny. As if to say, “replace me and you will have no idea what you have lost.” She seems to take it as his hilariously foolish choice and she is better off without him in her life. Therefore, you don’t see a typical heartbreaking scene. You see someone taking this as a lost to the other and the time to move on. A very intelligent and insightful Entertainer once said, “They will see what they had in a minute but by then it is going to be too late.” Food for thought. 

P.S. Come to think of it, There is one video that I can share…https://youtu.be/_oboHAIjlbA

Her smile.

Her smile seems genuine. 

However, behind her eyes is a lucid reality.

A short lived fantasy.

A superfical high.

A drug infused state of consciousness.

She will come down violently.

In a groggy state, she will forget.

All of the tails of her happiness.


When I think about the solar eclipse, it reminds me of the (sometimes very occasional) unpredictability of life. 

It is like the calm before the storm in a sense. Mostly everyone is waiting, anticipating and hoping. Some schools are closed. 

Where I am at the streets have gotten alittle quieter.

There is an atmosphere of patience, excitement, anxiety and waiting.

Even a sense of…”Ok this is getting boring.” Come already I am waiting for the excitement. 

Soon it will come to pass. Like everything that begins on this kind of scare or excitement. 

It feels like the whole world is waiting for the dramatic to happen. You know it is coming. You sense it. The signs are all there.

The anticipation is when we are the most alive. It is preparing us for what to come and barely last. In that sense, it is similar to the calm before the storm but mostly in a possitive sense.

The atmosphere is changing while I write this. Have a good day Everyone.