The one thing that I am the most misunderstood for and have been throughout my whole life among many is my extreme introverted side….97%. If you top that off with my high sensitivity to just about everything and my intivitive nature…it leads to a lot of misunderstanding. One is that I am anti-social but this is far from true. If I didnt learn to develop and thick and highly gated skin it would be almost offensive. It is laughable at best. Anti-social is a commonly misused term that has been used for us rare types. I am not detached or unloving to those in need. I like to reach out when I can. I have never killed anyone or have gotten anywhere close to it. I am probably one of the most harmless people u will ever meet. For the most part…I have very limited and almost zero desire for revenge on those who hurt me. When I do feel that desire…it rarely lasts. I often get over it quickly. On the other hand, If u hurt my child or someone that consitter my family…u might find yourself shocked about what a “heartless bitch” that I can become to defend them. In fact, I tend to shock the hell out people when they see the rare side if me. I feel the feelings and energies of others around me so much that it can be very overwhelming….especially around those that I care the most about. I do much better with people one and one or when I feel that I have a purpose. I act and look like my unique self because I only have this current life once. I am not perfect or magazine beautiful or a social butterfly and I never will be. But, I am intelligent, kind, compassionate and hard-working when I need to be. I am very empathic and very often highly intuned to others. I just dont always show it to everyone…just those I know well who I know care about what I have to say even when they disagree. Hi, My name is Jane. I am not anti-social. I am not cold. I am a highly sensitive introvert with flaws that match.
When the norm of society is to be unhealthy. Should we still follow the norms…
Fire is such a blessing and curse.
Like, every other earthly element.
Humans can’t live without it.
Humans can’t live with it.
I am staring up at smoky skies. The smell of smoke and haze is coming from 100 miles away and I am reminded of how fragile we all are.
Mercy can only be willing given.
Mercy can never be forced.
Mercy connects people.
Mercy heals the sick.
Mercy saves lives.
Mercy is a gift to both the giver and the receiver.
I had a dream
A higher being is talking to me.
He reminded me of the bridge of poverty that burned down in a dream I had nearly 6 months ago.
“Remember you go back again.” I am told.
I asked him, “Why I am in a shed then?” “how come I struggle to do things that should be much more straight forward .”
His answer, “But do you really? You took your money for granted and you complained of not having enought. You were very humble but you forgot how lucky you were. You were too stuck in the mindset of being poor. It is when you change your mindset that you begin to remedy that situlation. You give away every bit of spare resources you had. And when you weren’t doing that, you spent every penny you had. But, you ended up back at square one because you sowed seeds of poverty in your subconscious mind. You acted accordingly and then you ended up back to square one. You kept telling yourself that you weren’t poor except by U.S. standards…which is nevertheless still sowing seeds of poverty. You reforced the wrong ideas.
But I am working so hard! How do I stop this? I thought I was on the right path.
The voice says, “You are on the right path but you are being too hasty. You will get to exactly where you invision yourself being. But, you must work overtime, day and night to get there. You MUST slow down and take this time to take your time to learn perfection of your craft. You may a few too many mistakes but you need to keep going. Things will improve as you do. Learn to be more patient and meticulous and your time will come. It may take a lot of time but you are already over half way there”
Adandoned is what you feel
Because you feel doomed, it is hard to reach out
Carnage causes unspeakable dread
Damage is so extreme
Everyday, you feel so alone
Feeling numb and shocked
Griping onto your fear
Hell seems to have hit your life hard
Isolution seems so profound
Justice seems hard to come by
Karma knows its own
Looking for some light
Moving on seems nearly impossible
Never give up
Optimism is the way to better days
Positivity is hard to find yet it’s there
Quiting doesn’t stop the world from turning
Realize that there is always people to help you
Start pushing yourself to live again
Try to weather this hell
Unite to those who encourage you
Visualize what helps you through
Walk forward though the dark
EXtreme days of happiness will come again from time to time
You are worth over your weight in gold
Zeolously for life again will come about again if you allow it so